Day 82- Saturday, March 31st, 2012

Day 82- Saturday, March 31st, 2012

Im officially bored of being in this country. I did 3 hours of service today. And have nothing to do for the rest of the day. *SIGH* I am bored of Panama. I feel like Im grounded or something. I can't go to Volcan, because I have no money. I can't go to Rio Sereno because 1) I have no money and 2) There isn't even anything to do there. And now I can't even go to a baseball game. Today we talked during lunch about the differences between here, Mexico and the States. I came to the conclusion United States is Super liberal compared to Mexico. And Mexico is also super liberal compared to Panama. So the States seems like a free-for-all compared to Panama. This country is filled with strict rules and chismosas (gossipers). I am starting to feel like I can't do anything. No matter what I do, people are watching me. Its like a country full of spies and informers. No matter what I do, people will talk. EVEN if I don't do anything, people talk about me. Even if some gorgeous specimen of man looks at me for longer then the 3 seconds it takes to pass by me on the road, someone somewhere will be informed of it. This is lame! Even Red Bluff…no…even GERBER has more things to do, then here. I want to do something crazy with SHANNON! Cause Im going crazy here, and not the good type of crazy. Its like a jail! No Volcan, No Sereno, No David, and now no baseball, what next?! No breathing?! Can anyone tell today is not a good day?! Can anyone tell Im really irritated and angry today?! GOOD! Todays status is" SUPER…no…MEGA LAME! The only thing I can do is service, meeting, more service, exercise, more service, and oh yeah, more service! Im not complaining about that schedule. Its a good schedule, BUT I need something to blow off steam!! Something to distract me for a little bit. I mean even now I am typing out, everything that I first written out by hand. And why? Well because writing everything out by hand takes longer. Which means less time to be bored. PLUS then I have to retype it out. Which takes at least 3 times more as if I were to just type it out…yes! That is what I have resulted too. But just wait it gets sadder… This is what my hand written notes say: 

"I need something to blow off steam. I can only work out for 1 hour according to my workout schedule. Maybe I should do more Insanity workouts each day. What do you think, Nobody? Already I am working out an hour/60 minutes/3600 seconds. Should I double that? I need something to do!! How sad is this? Well one, I am asking nobody these questions. Thats pretty sad as it is. But worse I started to do math problems on paper. Just to cut time down. I have embroidered 3 wash clothes. I have only 1 more that I can do. I have polished my concrete floor until it shines. 3 TIMES! Ive imagine about 50 different things that an happen in ALL 9 of my stories. I've organized and re-organized my bookshelf about 7 TIMES! I've watched every single one of my movies 2 TIMES, some 3. I have written the time, date, and address on EVERY SINGLE Kingdom Hall invitation at the hall. Ive learned TONS of songs that I had downloaded, word-for-word. I've organized and re-organized my clothes stacks a billion times. I have washed my windows throughly 3 times, not including the normal wipe down they get. I have successfully done my makeup twice just like the red queen in the new 'Alice and Wonderland' just to see if I could do it. And I can. Maybe I should be a makeup artist! :) HA! I've counted, organized, re-counted, and re-organized my money. Ive read my flight info and immigration papers thoroughly. I've read all the current magazines. I have counted how many batteries I have left (10 by the way). I have started taken stuff apart, just to see if I can put it back together again. I've taken a whole bunch of pointless pictures of myself making crazy face, ultimately doing nothing =. I have looked through the sentimental things I have brought twice I don't want to look through them a lot less I want to go home faster and sooner. I have even slumped so low as to do some random ballet moves in my room. I've counted how many pills total I have left in my emergency bag… 14 Benadryl, 14 Ibuprofeno, 19 Treda, 12 Alka-Seltzer, 4 Agrixal, 4 Panadol, 9 Butilhioscina. I also know I have 5 contact lenses lenses for my right eye, and 3 for my left eye. Wait…what?…That doesn't seem right! Hmm hang on…Nope its true! Hmm how did that happen?! Weird! I also know I have 30 'Morton's Steakhouse' matches…Make that 29. I just turned one of to burn the tension and anxiety in the room. It didn't work… HA! My 'Monara' matches said there are 50 in the box. Oh really?! Ha! Then why did I just count 51?! …Yeah there are 51! I just counted again. Best out of 3?… Yup 51! I win!!… Whoopti-do! Thare are 12 squares on my ceiling. 3 pieces of wood make one wall. There are 16 nails on a board so that I can hang all off my nothings. But there is a total of 37 nails to hang stuff in my room. There are 12 window panes at each window. So how many window panes do I have? 48? WRONG! Because one of them is missing! I have 47! Ha! I win!!! …. You know the fun of winning is REALLY taken out when your winning against no one…Pretty lame…Hmm.. my 2nd toe is longer then my big toe. Is that normal?! And tho sis how bored I am today. OH My GOSH-NESS! WAIT! there is something that I haven't done yet!!! Oh my goodness how could I have missed this! This whole time! Who am I just realizing I haven't done something, when I am always using them?! Wait wait! I have to go do something!! …Im back I finished it! I now know that I have 78 buttons on my computer, 79 if you can't the on/off button. Welp! That excitement was very short lived! Lets see my computer says I have 537 songs; 1 day, 10 hours, 14 minutes, and 42 seconds of music. 2.43 GB of music. Well I guess if all else fails I could always learn every song…Hmm..*sigh* I need a mindless activity! Like…oh I don't know…watching a baseball game while sitting in soft crunchy grass, with a Coke! Well, this is lame. My 2nd toe was savagely smooshed in my service shoes. Which by the way are literally falling apart. Thats all today. Im too sad and depressed about my current situation. Goodbye Day 82. You were super lame!