Day 116- Friday, May 6th, 2012

Day 116- Friday, May 6th, 2012

Ah. Today was a good day. I went in service in the morning like always, came home for lunch. Then I went back out in the afternoon to go study with Eira and Osiris. Well when I got to Eira's house I was there for like 20 minutes and then her parents showed up and they were going to eat all together, so I left. I walked up to Osiris's house and, Can you believe it?! I was there for like 3 hours I think. I like being there with them though. They remind me a little bit of people i have left behind. Daniela told me today that the first day I came to their house she thought, hmm that girl is going to be my best friend. haha. She is crazy but very sweet. She also told me that I wasn't allowed to go back to Mexico. And couldn't I please please PLEASE stay longer? Osiris seemed to like this suggestion and told me that she had looked into some things for me. Apparently a few years back there was some American guy named, Brian (here pronounced Breee-in) and he taught English classes at the school. Anyways there was some sort of house built just in case he wanted to stay there. Its like a little apartment. but now nobody lives in it. Anyways, she found out that what I could do is, when I finish up my time here at this house/restaurant/place in July. I could move into the other little house, coincidentally like a 3 minute walk up-hill to her house, and I can teach some English classes for a little bit. Im not saying I am going to do it, but it got me thinking. I mean, I wouldn't actually stay here for like ever ya know. But just maybe JUST MAYBE I could stay a few more months. I got here in January my assignment was for 6 months, so next month is supposed to be my last month here, then I am supposed to go home. SUPPOSED TO should stand out in that sentence. I mean think about it. I don't have any pressing matters that I have to get back to, I don't have any sick parents, I don't have some amazing guy waiting for me to get back to marry me. (sadly) And even if I did on that last one, it would kinda have been the opportune moment to tell me what he felt BEFORE I left. Or like now, would be nice. Haha. Anyways, I don't have any of that to get back to. And my study with Osiris is going SO WELL right now, it would be a total bummer to leave it to someone else right now. :( I already had to do that when I moved from Irapuato and that was pretty lame, cause its taken me this long to find another honest-hearted person. ANYWAYS, nothing and no one is pulling me back home…But then again I do miss my friends and family and dog and city…BUT I am already here. The chances of me coming back to Panama and then coming back here are very VERY slim. Not like I don't want to come back, but there are SO MANY OTHER places I want to go to. And besides I already have tentative plans for next year's travel expedition with my CARIN! :D YEAH! Although I will have been here in total at the end of my assignment for 6 months! Which is a lot! Its half a year!! 3 more months, would make it 3/4ths of a year. Thats a long time, right?! But time goes by fast, and so does having the ability to keep up with the ambitions you have. I need to think about this like SERIOUSLY think…Don't know how I am going to ask my family what they would think about me staying here for longer…Well Carmen won't get back from Peru until October anyways. But then that means my Mama Llama will be all alone for 4 months instead of 3…hmm…maybe its not such a good idea…I don't want to leave her all alone, ya know. We kinda had an unspoken agreement that when Carmen would leave I would come back…Hmm…maybe I do have something that I need to get back for…responsibility! Hmm who knows. I need to think a little bit more about this. So I am leaving this un-ended thought out there for the void. Side note: The couple here is totally using the gas us girls are paying for, they thought I wasn't home and I came into the kitchen and they were cooking on our stove. Mind you these are the people that opted to use the lame electric 2 burner stove cause they didn't want to pay for gas. And now they are using ours. Hmm…Interesting! Good night Day 116.