Day 120-Tuesday, May 8th, 2012

Day 120-Tuesday, May 8th, 2012

Today was not my day. Like seriously. 1) My Mama Llama never called last night. :( 2)I was woken up by something heavy and hard hitting my leg. I looked at my phone for the time, and I got the lovely surprise of it reading, 6:23 A.M. I turned my head to see what the heck hit me and there is Leti standing over me, with one of her boots! YEAH! I just got hitten awake by a huge boot. And of course, when you are hitten awake at 6:23 A.M. your not in the best mood and don't really care about the tone you use. So I said. "What?! What do you want?!"

"The service group is up at Nixon's house today, because we haven't worked the territory up there lately. We need to leave on the bus that passes at 7:45." She is not observant WHAT-SO-EVER and doesn't realize that although that is the schedule the bus doesn't actually pass us until 8:30!!! 

"Thats it?"

"Yeah."

"And you had to hit me to tell me that?!"

"Well how else was I supposed to get you up?!"

"What?!"

"Well if I don't wake you up you'll sleep in, until like 11."

"And WHEN was the last time you saw me sleep until 11?!!!! Oh yeah, NEVER!! ! Whats wrong with you?!" I said in a somewhat snarl, as I turned around facing the wall, and pulling my blanket over my head. I was livid! Ok cause…

1) You just don't hit people with shoes, ESPECIALLY at 6:23 in the morning. 

2) I never sleep past 7 on a service day and they KNOW this! 

3)Normally she is in bed as well when I get up. 

4) Don't ever and I mean EVER hit me! 

5) Its 6:23 in the morning!! Leave me alone! The worst part is, she just went right along with her morning. She didn't say 'Sorry for beating you with my shoe.' or  'Sorry for waking you up more then a half hour before you normally get up.' or 'Sorry for not telling you at a decent hour last night about the service arrangement.' OR 'Sorry for burning the coffee this morning!!' So of course I now could not go back to sleep. Getting beat with a shoe first thing in the morning does things to ya, I guess. And then drinking burnt coffee I mean come on!! I was mad! So I stayed home today to write my talk for Thursday. Well in the morning, I took my burnt cup of coffee and went to say hi to Mayka and ask her something. And the ____s put the lock on the door and left in the bus. So I had to call them and tell them to send the keys back with the bus driver when he came down. But that bus had JUST got to the top and they always stay AT LEAST 30 minutes before coming back down. So I had to wait there with Mayka in the store for the dumb key! I finally got in and got all my books together and just sitting down looking over the material for my talk I felt better. And now I am off to go visit Osiris! :D Daniela had a dentist appointment today so I am not sure if we will be going to run, either way I am going to go up to her house, cause I know she is going to need help cause she always has SO much work. Plus Daniela didn't have school today so she is probably dying! I will talk to you guys when I get back. :) 

--------Back for the Night-------------

Hmmm…so this is new. And not a good new. I have again realized that nobody here gets me. The also don't understand basic easy facts. For instance! A) The branch would not send a stupid immature 18 year old on a route to a different country alone. B) Although I am 18 the branch did send me here. C) 1+1 does not equal 7! 1+1=2. So IF the branch DOES NOT send stupid immature INCAPABLE 18 year olds to a 3rd world country by themselves, but they DID send me. 1+1!!! I must not be a stupid immature INCAPABLE spaz of an 18 year old. My elders would not have sent me here either. So 1+1=2. I am an intelligent mature CAPABLE 18 year old. Meaning I am not an idiot that can't talk care of herself. And also, I know what I am doing. So there is no possible reason why I should be treated like a stupid immature incapable spaz of a person, is there?! No! Because when I DO walk down the hill, although by myself, I always have 1) My awesome huge flashlight. 

2) My umbrella for a) rain b) dogs c) people. 

3) my phone in my hand, ready to make an emergency call if needed. 

4) My wicked awesome thing that I can't remember the name of that the Robinsons gave me, that can be used as a tool OR a weapon if need be. and finally 

5) I take my common-sense and brain with me! 

So when I do stay at my Bible Studies house until after dark, I STILL have my gear with me. And by now, I know the road. I know where AT THE BOTTOM of the hill, like literally 3 minutes away from my house, guys like to congregate on Fridays. So I stay away from that area. I also know, where the houses are on the road. And which are either my studies or families that I know, in case I ever needed to get off the street fast. I also know which parts of the road will be the darkest, so I make sure my flashlight is on, while walking through the parts. I also know if for ever reason I have to get home AS FAST AS I CAN it takes me around 20-25 minutes to get home, running. BUT since there is NO reason for me to have to RUN home because like I have mentioned a THOUSAND TIMES we live in a blimp of a town, it doesn't even merit the comparison of a 'blimp of a town'. We seriously have 1 main road, and its the main road because it is the ONLY road we have that connects everything. So I like in a less then a blimp of a town, where I know not only everyone, all the houses, cars, trucks, buses, but also I know every DOG in this town. And everyone knows me. Oh yeah and I am MARGARITA PALACIOS for goodness sake! Mama didn't raise no fool-child! So no, ok no I do not think I am going to be needing a lecture from ANYONE, including 2 Mexican girl-women who are afraid to do anything in life, unless with each other, and then they are still afraid but afraid together! I don't need a lecture from YOU! And I will not be getting one from you. And THIS is why I didn't want to live with anyone, but wanted to live on my own! I had and still have my reasons! SO if and this is now a HUGE!!! And I mean huge gigantic IF. IF I were to change my mind about going back home on time, and were to stay here a few more months…IF I were to do that THIS is a PERFECT EXAMPLE of why I would be making all my arrangements FIRST, and then when I can not change any of them, THEN tell the people here that I will be staying. And INFORM them of what I will be doing. Because IF, and again huge if, IF I were to tell them right this minute that I wanted to stay here, Good Lord! THEY would be the ones eventually running my schedule, telling me when I was going to work, when I was going to eat, when I was going to be parasite sick! NO! Starting tomorrow I will be telling everyone I am sticking to the original plan of going back home on the 3rd of July. IF something changes I will keep it to myself and Osiris. Because she at the moment is the only one, not trying to act like a parent figure. Plus, she has already helped me by coming up with the idea, suggesting a house, and giving me the name of the guy I would need to talk to about using the classrooms in the school for my English classes. I love Osiris! Its really too bad I can't move in with her! Although I am sure if I asked she would say yes! But either way IF I were to stay here longer, after I made my plans in secret and then informed everyone of the then-being-unchangeable-plans-that-have-been-set-and-stuck-in-stone, I would live like a 3 minute walk uphill away from her, which would be pretty awesome! Anyways, yes. People are SUCH chismosas here, like we don't even know how to give a good chisme in comparison to people here. Like my granny and her chismes can't hold a candle to people here. They are SO nosy! Its SOOOOO annoying! Ay Dio Mio, I greatly dislike this. Can't people just let me do my thing?! ITs not even like its a bad thing! When Nixon talks to me about this, and he WILL talk to me, because again nosy-ness, I will just have to explain to him, 

1)The less time I spend in THIS house the less stressed I am. 

2) Walking calms me. 

3) I am being careful. 

4) I am with my Bible Student. 

5) The branch wouldn't have sent me here if I was capable of taking care of myself. 

6) I am going back home in July. A few more PEACEFUL, RAINY, ALONE, SUNSETTING walks are NOT going to hurt me, but keep me in good enough health and mental capacity to stay here. MAN! Another reason why I don't like having the age number of 18. When I feel like 25. Side note: No one here in this house or actually in this hall, besides me that is, has ever taken a self-defense class. Nor would they be able to fit back on lack of muscle. Nor would they be able to scare someone away with a single look. Nor are they tall enough to seem intimidating. And I know for a FACT, by using common sense, I could take anyone in the KH. Its not my fault that I know this, every time I meet a new person I weight the differences and I see if I would be able to take them. And the answer is yes to everyone here. And I haven't even been able to work out for a whole MONTH! And I could still take them all. Just saying I am more then capable of protecting myself and I am smart enough not to be so stupid like everyone else here. So yeah. I'll be just fine, thank you very much! UGH! Not so much livid anymore as ticked off. Its 10:10 p.m. and I am surprisingly tired! ((Side Note: The reason why I came down the hill late was because it was raining like CRAZY and even with my umbrella open I would have been drenched when I got back to the house. PLUS, I am pretty sure with all that rain, I might have broken my umbrella. Either way I was comfy and warm in Osiris' house!)) I think I forgot to mention that in my rantings. Oh well Im going to bed and I am guessing I will lie awake wondering how to deliver this argument I just delivered here, in Spanish… It shall be interesting! And I literally CAN WAIT, thats right I CAN WAIT for it. Because I am not looking forward to whatever new things they will be throwing my way. However, this will be the 2nd, yes SECOND time they have wanted to talk to me about something, that goes out the window as a worrisome item when the person that is doing it has common-sense. I think they are just used to dealing with people like #2(if you don't understand this reference look at Days 78 & 115. Oh yeah! Speaking of #2! I have know had to defend both #1 (for reference start from Day 85 to now.) and #2 just on principle. Not so much defend as like smooth over waves they have started. And they don't even like me as a person! And everyone knows it, and I am still helping them out. Betcha they aren't doing the same for me! But it doesn't matter. 'Treat others as you want to be treated' right?! Ay Dio Mio! My eyes are tired. I feel emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted. But Lord help me if someone wakes me up with a shoe again! World War 3 would start inside me!! Alright, Im going to bed. Goodnight Day 120! Wow! Day 120! Trippy!!