Day 113- Tuesday, MAY 1st, 2012!

Day 113- Tuesday, MAY 1st, 2012! 

Dudes! Its May already!! What?!?! I know!!! DUDE! 

Well its Tuesday night, I went out in service in the morning until 1. Then came home had a nice lunch with the girls. This morning I once again tried to befriend and tame the beast…to no avail. :( Oh well, Im trying. After lunch everyone took off, and I took a wonderful cold shower… :l Yeah. Im sadly getting used to the cold water, when I get home I will probably burn or something using normal luke-warm water. haha. Anyways, I took a shower and got ready. Today I felt like putting on make-up, so I did. Then I waited for the bus to take me up to Osiris house. You see both, of us have wanted a workout partner for a while now and we can't find anyone. So today I went up and we walk/ran probably about a mile out from her house and a mile back. It was AWESOME! Her daughter, Daniela came with us. That kid is funny crazy. Its like a flashback of when I was little when I am with her. :) I actually really enjoyed our few hours together, they did too. We laughed a lot, talked a lot, and sweat a lot. Haha. Surprisingly I didn't sweat as much as I thought I was going to. So thats good. When we were making our way back the fog/clouds were rolling in over the mountains and hills. It was really beautiful and refreshing. :) When we got back to her house a whole bunch of people (her family) was there. Her mother, father, sister-in-law, sister,nephew, other sister. Her house is small so it seemed like a HUGE amount. Haha. They invited me to have dinner but it was already getting dark, so I decided to get changed back into my normal clothes and then I took off. They are all super nice. If they invite me to stay for dinner next time, I will. Just not today. It was 7 again when it got super dark so after the first 2 turns in the road Mayka called me and asked me if I was almost home. :) I love Mayka she is a good sister/neighbor/sub-Panama-mom. She is awesome! The more I spend time with her the more I realize how much she reminds me of my own mom. :} Aww. Anyways, when I got home, instead of going to the store like I usually do, I went straight into my house and plopped down on my bed. Rebe told me Albin had been looking for me a few times so I went back out to the store. Mayka and Albin were both there. Albin needed help on his English homework and I was too tired from running and then walking from Osiris's house to mine to tell him to do most of the work, so I ended up doing it all. Oops. Kinda dropped the ball on that one, I guess. Thats not good! Anyways, I told him the next time, I wouldn't be so tired so he would have to do at least 75% of it. Haha. Anyways, then I came back here to the house and the room. The girls were both flopped on their bed so I followed the current and flopped on mine. Now its 8:40 I am exhausted and none of us have eaten dinner. And I am figuring out that everyone is waiting for someone else to start dinner. Haha. I think I will go and be awesome and whip us together something. :) Yeah Im that awesome! Oh yeah. Tomorrow I am going to Volcan in the morning, to a) Get money. b) Get my medical exams done. c) Look for some groceries. and then possibly d) Depending on the exams, I might be super depressed and 'have a Treat Yo Self' lunch. Meaning Pizza and Beer. YEAH! Oh good goly gosh SALAD!! Ok no matter what I will be getting a salad. Depending on the results, I might be getting something else…Im not sure how I feel about the whole getting results done. Do you think its possible all of this is just from stress? I mean my hair has been falling out a lot lately. Add the stomach problems, crazy headaches, not being able to sleep, never seeming to get enough rest, and feeling basically horrible for about a month now…It could just be super bad stress…Wow. I have been in this house for almost a month! Hmm…it could be stress. I am hoping its stress. Brother Nixon told the girls that if the exams said it was something really serious they would send me back home…I have decided that no matter what the exams say, I will like usual with medical things, keep a straight face. And look normal and happy on the outside…UGH! I am starting to stress out more about these stupid 5 exams!! I gotta use the bathroom I will be back… AGH! I can't even go to the bathroom because there is no water! :( This is a lame smoosh of a night. :( Does anyone else know how it feels to have a roommate you is CONSTANTLY stating the complete obvious?! Its annoying. Does anyone else know how it feels to always have to pause and take a breath before entering your house? Its annoying. Does anyone else know how it feels to, once you do go inside, have a hush fall over ever room as if they were JUST talking about you? Its annoying. Does anyone else know how I feel right this moment, What emotion is knocking on the door? Its Annoying! :l Im going to bed. Somewhat satisfied with the dinner I ate, but not completely. And then extremely tired and annoyed with my roommates and housing situation at the moment. I want one night in a regular housing situation with no drama. Is that too much to ask for? Just one night? Where I can actually have a good night sleep, without an extremely loud monstrous snorer in the next room. And without an extremely drooly and gargling snorer next to me. And without an extremely loud waker-upper in the middle of the night to cough and make it sound like she is dying, while she is still sleeping. And without two SUPER loud people who live in the same house as me, and when they get up at 6 in the morning, they feel like the whole world should be up so they purposely make a bunch of noise. And without a super oblivious roommate ALWAYS throwing stuff on my bed in the wee moments of 6:30 when I am still TRYING to sleep, and then poking me, or sitting on the side of my bed, or starring at me until I can feel her, or doing some other annoying task in the middle of the 6th hour of the morning. Just one peaceful sleep with no snoring, no poking, no starring, no heavy things plopping out of nowhere and scaring me awake, no loud people disrupting my very-much-needed slumber. One a comfy bed. Is that too much to ask for? I don't really think it is. Especially since I am not asking for anything crazy like, a feather comforter and a bed you melt into when you lay down, and the room temperature being cold but the blankets being heavy and warm, so that only your face is cold. Or an actual breakfast in bed. Or soft fuzzy jammers. Or an ACTUAL pillow, instead of my wrapped up jacket stuffed into a pillow case. Or quiet, minus the air conditioning which keeps your room like the inside of a cave. Or being able to just sleep for as many hours as your body needs, without any distractions or awakenings. Im not asking anything crazy just ONE actually GOOD night sleep! That is all that I am asking…Is that too much?! I don't think it is. Cause I know for a fact, if I was spending a night with Shannon I would have a good amount of those things to check off. Same as if I was spending a night with Mali and Cristina. Thats all I want, one good night sleep. Please! …But I am not going to get it. And do you know why? Because its 10 already and I have to be ready to walk out of the door with my exam samples, already eaten my breakfast and taken my pills and ready and packed for the day BY 7:30!!! Which means getting up at 6:30 at least.  No. EARLIER! 6 because thanks to not having water. I can't shower right now! YEAH! 6 o'clock! Unless I am going to run in the park with Jaz, Sandy, and my sister I don't even want to THINK about that hour. Plus, I DO live in the conditions I just stated. And I am not pleased with it AT ALL tonight. >:{ Goodnight!  Side Note: I found out that Osiris is related to Mr. Rico-Suave, today. I don't know why, but its like not only is everyone related to him but everyone is bringing him up lately in conversation. And always wanting to know what I think of him. Its weird. But for some reason talking about him with Osiris wasn't as weird as I thought it would be. She started off like. "Isn't it true that the bus driver isn't ugly." And I was like "What? Who? Which one?" and she said "Dorian. Do you think he is ugly?" My only response was laughing, and saying "Noooooo. I don't think anyone thinks he is ugly" to which she said "I know! He is part of my family and even I know he is beautiful" Haha. She is funny. I now know a little bit more about him…For instance, he WAS in the States a few years back, but he was there illegal and then he got caught and sent back here. But the chick he was with there was knocked up and didn't come back with him. She is now a Jehovah's Witnesses. If you can believe that! Also he WAS not so good-looking when he was younger apparently this beauty sprouted after high school. He DOES have a whole bunch of ladies after him. He DOES have a lot of different "friends". But it sounds like only one "Girl-Friend". Osiris DOES NOT like the thought of them together. Because she knows he isn't happy and has other women and she knows the chick has other boyfriends and doesn't make Dorian happy. So she doesn't really like them together. Daniela DOES NOT like her as a person, this is a fact she added to our conversation. Osiris thinks that MAYBE someday Dorian will find the "right" one and finally be happy. But she is POSITIVE it won't be with anyone from here. 'She would have to be a foreigner, for sure!' She said. I just agreed and kept walking. She thinks it is sad that he isn't happy with the people he has, and really wants him to find a "GOOD" person, cause apparently he is a "GOOD" person, on the inside. I also now know that he DOES have ''plata'' as they say here. Which means he has money. Not like a millionaire but he has money. I also know that he has his own land and is apparently really a good farmer and has a few fields to prove it. he also DOES in fact have a motorcycle but barely uses it, since he drives the bus all day. He IS in fact 33 years of age this year. Even though, he doesn't look that old…you know I am not sure if he doesn't look that old. OR if the more time that goes by, the less I think that 33 is so far away. It really isn't all that far away for me, ya know. 14 years only in difference…hmm…interesting… Well I think that is it that I know about him. Oh yeah his daughter is 5 now, but the girl stayed in the USA, and so i don't think he has ever seen her. But he only has one offspring as far as everyone knows. He has definitely had his share of ladies, but Osiris thinks he is getting bored of so many random idiots running through his life. He apparently has told Osiris, in confidence by the way, so I think its kinda funny she is telling me all this, He is only with his "girlfriend" to pass the time and so that he isn't "alone". Just to say that he has a girlfriend basically. Which I can kind of understand, just wanting to have someone to be able to feel like your not completely alone in the world. Even if its just saying you have someone…Hmm…he almost seems like he is a normal actual nice guy…At the end of our conversation, I actually kind of felt bad for him. No one, no matter how Rico-Suave they seem on the outside, should be alone if they don't want to be…Hmm…I am not sure how to think of him know. Which confuses me which stresses me out. Which reminds me of everything else I am stressed out about, which makes me irritated. Which reminds me about the time of night. Which makes me look at the clock, which makes me realize it i 10:43. Which makes me realize how tired I am, and that I still have to clear my bed off and take my contacts out. Which makes me say ''Goodnight Day 113